8 months ago
I've been feeling pretty vulnerable right now because I'm hearing impaired and I have always had lots of trouble with comprehension. I can't watch movies without subtitles. I can't understand movies if I don't see the lyrics first. I can't do phone interviews because I'm scared to death of annoying people and just scared of the phone in general. I've had people hang on me because they become angry after repeating themselves over and over again. That's why it's so difficult for me to find a job.
But the thing that makes me feel the most vulnerable is having to send my voicemail recordings to my family members or friends so they can tell me what people are telling me. I live in Montreal (Canada) and despite the fact that I can communicate in french, whenever I listen to voicemails I can't understand. I can listen, I can hear, but I can't understand.
It's like my brain has wired itself to not understand English and french sounds. I can hear, but I can't understand. Even when I'm having a conversation with somebody sometimes I just nod and say yes to whatever people say so they don't have to repeat themselves and this has gotten me in trouble a lot of times
Why can't the government just send e-mails instead of calling people? I know there are ways to send secure e-mail with passwords but for some reason society is hell-bent on using the telephone, specially for everything concerning government and medical affairs.
Even my studying choices are impacted by my disability. I can't work on anything phone-related or people-related so that's why I went with computer science which is just mostly programming.